Aww..I love hims so much!

Today has been actually a pretty good day for me. I actually got to spend times with my babys!! I love the fact that he's home during the evenings now..even though I get scared when I am home alone at night but I'm finally getting usest to it! It also will work out better for when Sydney finally arrives too because he will be home with us during the days and get to see her just as much as me! Kyle makes me so happy and makes me laugh so much lol :), I don't think i've ever laughed this much in a long time! lol some of the things he does and says just cracks me up..like the way he breaks out in these really goofy dances at random moments when were doing stuff! AHH..I just don't know what I would do without hims! I also started on my maternity leave today which I really hesitated on doing but know with only nine days left until my due date it's better to take it than be at work and my water break! But I started stressing this morning on the way home because I have my insurance to pay next week and no money for it and I don't want Kyle or anyone else to worry about my stuff when they have so much to worry about already! I can't wait until she's here and I can spend the time with her and then after my 6 weeks or maybe even less than that get back to work so I can take care of my own things! Me and Kyle both realize we're about to hit a really rough spot in life and I admit the next month is goping to be harder than ever but I know and he knows to that no matter what we will be fine! We alweays make it through!

MIne and Kyle's day out!

Well me and kyle had a doctors appiontment wenesday and it went really good I guess..still no baby but I am pretty sure the way I have been feeling she will be here soon! We are both so excited and can't wait until she is finally here, I am almost 39 weeks and let me tell you..ahh it's horrible! I stay hot all the times and I literally have to roll off the couch to get up if i'm laying down. It takes me a while to get up the stairs now too..lol kyle laughs at me when I run out of breath trying to wrestle with him :) but I still love him! I have never been so happy in my life, he's my other half and wihtout him I wouldn't be me's. We decied after the appointment to go to hte Gentry zoo which was alotta fun..we both needed to get out of the house for awhile and just relax!

This was the most annoying animal there..lol they kept coming up to our windows and staring at them selfs through it lol.!!

flashback...man don't you just love those..lol..

Well today was a very rough day today but it was good in the end..lol...me and kyle went to pick up afriend and on the way down there I kept getting flashbacks of the way things were before I got back with kyle and started having a life again, and let me tell you those are the flashbacks I don't want to have anymore..I had a moment where I was thinking about when I lived in bell with my friends and a guy I really didn't want to be with but for some reason I chose him over kyle. I realize I only went with him because he could get me out of the home I was in with my mom and get me started on my road of freedom which don't get me wrong was awesome and I loved every minute of the freedom, except the part of waking up every morning next to this guy that I didn't even love the way I love kyle..he was simply just too much for me to want to be with him. I remember every time he would go out on the road to work for a week at a time I was at my happiest because I could go out alone with my bestie and we could do whatever we wanted without them knowing. I remember one week in december they left out and I got a letter from Kyle the day of his 19th birthday telling me exactly how he felt..that he still cared and wanted to be with me, lol I remeber sitting in english class reading that note over and over again because I couldn't believe it! lol I knew right than that I wasn't where I really wanted to be in my life! I finally made the right decision and followed my heart the way I should of in the first place, and now I have the greatest life I could want! I have an amazing boyfriend and a little girl on the way and I know that it was meant to be this way... I know in the end that God always leads us in the right direction and we always end up in the right place no matter how long it takes us to get there!

She's almost here!

Well I haven't posted anything since the baby shower so I thought I would give an update..I am finally 35 weeks pregnant and she is almost here!!!I really can't wait anymore, I really want to meet her face to face..

This is the 3-d image of her face form a week ago..she's going to look like me in the face..but I know she is going to have her daddys pretty lips! She is going to be very beautiful and I know that we are excited to meet her. We have decided were going to start taking our stuff with us to every appiontment from here on out since we are getting so close and I have no idea how much longer we will have, It's simply up to her now..mommy has no control lol. I can't wait until she finally gets here and we get to hold her for the first time!