Challenges!!

I haven't wrote on my blog in a while and there is so much to write about!!First of all I have a upcoming dotors appointment the 4th which to me is super scary because the doctors in general just give me the heebie jeebies, even though I wanna be a doctor myself I still don't trust alot of other doctor's. Also I had an amazing weekend hanging with my boyfriend and our friends casey and michelle..We all went to the mall and for the first time since we have lived here I finally got out for an evening out on the town..lol. Jennifer and Ridge also got to come up saturday and hang out with us for a while which was cool because we haven't hung out with them in a while now. There's still something that is missing which is my number girl Shannon who I really miss alot..we get to talk on my space every now and then which is good but I wish we both had the time to meet up somewhere and just hang out and tak about baby things for once instead of just talking here and there ya know what I mean!But me and her both knew that this would happen after graduation that we would both end up working all the time or splitting up and going in different directions the way that we have so far!! She's been my best friend for three years now and I have no IDEA!!..how I would of made it through all the hard times I have had in the past three years. We always help each other through our problems no matter how big or little they are! But anyways I love her too death and miss her bunches. I also am thankful for everyone else I have in my life, especailly my loving boyfriend Kyle.. and his amazingly wonderful sisters who make me laugh and smile just the same way he does. He's so excited about his new job at the police department here in Springdale and I couldn't be happier for him..I will stand by his side through all the cool cop things that he wants to do in the future and I know he will support me in the future also! I am planning to try and start school soon too..as soon as I can except nothing big just a votech school or something like that to get me started until after the baby is born. I feel so bad here lately because we have all these things that need to be paid and I have NO JOB which in m y opinion is TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE!! I don't like the fact that kyle has all this pressure building up on his shoulders about how to take care of us when I stress out because he has all of this stuff to worry about that makes me so angry at myself for it.I have finally realized that there is going to be a million challenges that we will have to face in the future especially after the baby is born. but I guess thats enough griping about other crap. lol. I know I have worries and so does kyle but I know we will be able to make it through anything thats hard in our live's.

Letting go of some of my Thoughts

There's so mamy things in life that i always wonder whether or not thier ever going to change. Like the way some people always expect you to give things back to them when they know you can't so you begin to realize not to count on them anymore. There's only so many people in this world that i can trust and they should know who they are. Like for example Kyle's sister and her fiance Billy..they have done so much for ma and Kyle and i have No idea how the Lord can bless us with people like them. They do so much for us..especially Tiffany! lol I hope she realizes she will be attending many of my future Doctor's appiontments for the baby.. I know she would be super excited just the same as me!:) And if it wasn't for Kyle being the Greatest guy i have ever met in my life then i'm afraid my life wouldn't be perfect as it is when I'm with him. He does so much for me and for our upcoming baby. He treats me like i'm just a baby myself..He tells me when I shouldn't run and when to slow down on the things i am doing all the time. There's some people in my family that make me feel really fat even though i know that i'm not yet! I mean come on people!! I'm only almost two months Pregnant..give me a flipping break and watch your own wieght for once instead of mine. I'm already nervous enough to gain more wieght than I should so just let me handle my wieght issues the way I know I should. Life isn't easy for anybody and right now it's only going to get harder for me and Kyle before it gets better and believe me people it will get easier once I get our feet. I know that we can make it just as long as we don't let the drama from other people get in our way and effect us. We will always make it through the things we get put through!

The amazing changes

I recently found out a week ago that I was pregnant and it totally shocked me and made me nervous at the same time! I had so many thoughts going through my mind all at once..like the fact that my family would be so mad at me for this and how to tell others about. Luckily I have an amazing boyfriend that has always there for me and was right by my side whenever i was told the news by the nurse. Some people we're against the fact that me and kyle we're going to be having a baby. But thier starting to come around and it really helps me and kyle alot because now we don't have as much stress as we did have at the beginning of all of this. We just recently moved to springdale and if it wasn't for his sister and her man billy we wouldn't have anything. They both have helped us out so much and I really appreciate them both. For me and kyle, moving up here has been the best thing for us so far becuase we're away from Stilwell..there is so much drama in that town that we both we're depressed and we always fought when we were there, but ever since last week we haven't gotten into a fight one time which is so AWESOME!! I am so happy with him..I couldn't imagine being with anyone else. I believe that everything happens for a reason and I believe God gave me and Kyle this baby to show us that we really are meant to be with each other. even though we have our differences, there's so much we have in common! I love waking up in the morning right next to him and having him there to talk to. There so much that we both have to go through and I know as long as we have each other we can always make it through the hard times that we have ahead of us. I love him so much with all of my heart and I know we can make it through this! And we still have eight more months of me being gripey and harsh and me getting fat. lol But I know we can always make it through!